The Fish in the Jungle

2018 has been another challenging year. No doubt. Its 365 days never stop surprising me. So what did I learn. 1. Loneliness I'm not saying I'm alone as if I got no friend at all. Somehow, having more people around me making me lonelier. As if, no one is listening or maybe I'm not the who doesnt not want to open up. But, well, I once came across someone's tweet, that I found out quite amusing. That I'm not the only one having the same problem. Which is to not knowing how to open up. I know what my problem is but the words couldnt come out. And even if I did, no one could understand how I actually feel. That is the truth though. No one knows what one is facing except oneself. So, I ended up keeping it to myself eventhough i wanted reaaallyy bad to spit them out, to lighten myself up. But I am afraid of crying. I'm afraid that I might get too weak and the tears will fall down. Yes. I hate crying. No matter how many people said, it's okay to cry, I sti...